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Post by Clannibal on Sept 28, 2015 11:01:30 GMT -5
| if i'm a danger to myself Just think what I could do to you [HASH]Zach |
She was so melodramatic, it was unlike anyone he'd met before. He wasn't really surprised when she reacted negatively to his pointed accusations. Still, he found her so childish as she ranted on about how different she was from everyone else. She really had been living under a rock. If she went up and talked to more people she'd realize she wasn't so special after all. He let her go on with it, just watching her with a neutral expression as he cupped some more water and took sips.
As her thoughts progressed she seemed more and more upset by what he'd said. She almost seemed to blank out. Maybe he'd crossed the line. After all, she could've even been raped or something. He didn't know anything about her except what she'd told him. Abusive parents.
She told Zach he should go and he about rolled his eyes.
"Sorry, it doesn't work like that, we don't get what we-" he stopped short, after watching her display. Now Nix was slumped over, and seemed to be feeling sick, the way she stood like that. He felt uncomfortable as he ran wet fingers through his dark hair. Obviously he wasn't going anywhere. Especially now that he'd made her cry.
"Okay... Obviously I hit a nerve with you. In my opinion, it just proves I'm right," he said quietly, leaning down into the water to try and see her face better. Her hair was everywhere, though, hiding her from him. He didn't try to approach her, though. She liked to hit him and he wasn't sure his patience was gonna last with her acting like that.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 29, 2015 2:29:30 GMT -5
NIX NIGHT Shadow of the Night
nix could feel her chest tying in knots, part of her wanted to turn around and shout at him. Tell him he didnt get forced in to clothes and carted out liked an overgrown doll, he wasnt beaten to keep inline and he didnt have to leave his home because something worse had been coming. But part of her also just wanted to curl in the water and give in, sob from the horror she had seen and what she had been forced to do. She held on to it for most of her time, ignoring the pain in her chest because if she let it in, she would never stop crying. She had to ignore it, push it down inside herself somewhere.
"Im glad that makes you happy" she commented, her voice dull and hard as he claimed his judgement was right. She knew it, she opened up that little but and allowed herself to trust someone and all she got was hurt. Now she was thinking back to things she wanted to ignore and the crash as burning in to her mind as well, just something else she needed to suppress from now on. she knew she could keep this up, she was going to snap one day soon but she didnt want anyone around her when she finally let go and let it all hit her | |
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Post by Clannibal on Sept 29, 2015 12:38:47 GMT -5
| if i'm a danger to myself Just think what I could do to you [HASH]Zach |
He was trying to be what he referred to as 'warm and fuzzy,' but it just did not work so well for him. Nix didn't seem to want that, either. Or maybe that was just his male bias. Guys like him didn't want to be coddled, and he figured Nix would be more like that, too. Still, he was at a loss for words.
"Sorry," was all he mustered, with a shrug of his shoulders. "I make girls cry all the time."
He stood up at full height again and started walking away from her, back towards the shore where he could crawl of out there. He decided to leave Nix to her own devices after all. If she wanted to follow him, great. But this was the time for him to leave and head back to the group. He was hungry, tired, and now there was a almost-crying girl to escape.
"I'm sorry you've had such a crappy life. I really am. Don't take me the wrong way. I hope we will stay friends. But if you're looking for a shoulder to cry on, I'm probably not going to be the guy for that," he explained as he was wading waist deep in the water. His voice was sincere, apologetic. He felt bad. Still, he was also frustrated with her. He felt like this whole thing was going nowhere.
As he finally reach the rocky edge, he sat down on it to let his legs dangle in the water, while he waited for some kind of reaction from the redhead.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 29, 2015 14:17:56 GMT -5
NIX NIGHT Shadow of the Night
She didnt know how she felt right now, though she was sure some of this was left over from being dizzy. The heat, blood loss, lack of food or water was making her in to the type of girl she hated! She took a breath, swallowing her mouthful of air and pushing in down in to her chest. "What a useful skill" she said in a low and snide voice as she heard the male move away, the water making soft sounds as he shifted. She knew this wouldnt have worked, no. She needed to find items, a shelter and then she was looking out for herself. Trusting someone else got her hurt once more, why bother trying to help? "I dont need a shoulder, i need a decent break down to deal with rotting bodies that were once people and gaping holes in my head and people starving to death" she muttered, knowing her mind was moving on to the place where it didnt want to be seen being weak so it would hold itself together and break down later.
"Where you gonna go then?" she asked, her head lifting from the water and her eyes catching herself. There was dried blood on the right side if her face, the cut there clear and sticking out from under the now grey white shirt. Her hair was wet and close to her head and her eyes were cold and dark, their green almost grey as she looked at herself. She looked like she had years ago, wild almost. | |
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Post by Clannibal on Sept 29, 2015 18:46:29 GMT -5
| if i'm a danger to myself Just think what I could do to you [HASH]Zach |
He sat and listened to her explain herself. See, he liked that, when a person decided to be upfront and just explain what it was they needed. Maybe he could be a little dense sometimes, or more like stubborn, really. He liked simple and honest terms. Nix explained herself well enough, so now he felt he could try to help her. With words, not useless hugs and backscratching. He blinked with understanding as she started to let loose about the things bothering her. He listened politely, his dark eyes unreadable as he mulled them over.
She finally seemed to finish, after turning to look at him and asking where he planned on going.
"Okay," he said, with a shrug and a nod of his head. He wasn't patronizing, he was giving in to her needs. "You can have a meltdown if you need to. It's the human thing to do."
He rubbed subconsciously at his wounded arm. The scabs had all softened up from the water, so it stung more.
"Yeah, a lot of people back there are dead now. It fucking sucks, Nix. My little brother was one of those bodies. He's gone, I guess. But I feel like he's in my head now. Following me, screaming at me for help. The only thing I can do is move forward. It's what we gotta do. "The living are more important than the dead. But it could be that they are better off than we are. We will end up sick, starving, and dying, if we don't start fighting now. But we have to do it together. There are people sitting over there," he pointed, "that can't fend for themselves. Once we are done here, I'm going back to them to keep things moving along."
He rested his hands on his knees and caught her eye with the usual Zachary intensity that he had. "I guess I haven't had the proper 'break down' either, just yet. I've been keeping myself busy on purpose. Fixing things feels better than whining about what we can't fix, know what I mean?"
He felt like tears of his own might start soon if things got any more heated, and he didn't want that the same that Nix didn't either. They may understand each other, after all.
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Post by Deleted on Sept 30, 2015 13:02:57 GMT -5
NIX NIGHT Shadow of the Night
"I cant melt down" she snapped suddenly, the red head turning with her eyes now filling with water and her gaze cold. "If i melt down i feel bad, i feel bad so i dont move on. Not moving means no water, no food, no shelter. If i melt down i let it all in and nothing gets done and i end up a mess that some one else needs to help! I dont want help!" she growled, her voice quickly breaking as she felt her face flush warm. "Damn it" she muttered, turning back and leaning over to rub her face on her shirt and cleaning away the few tears that had escaped her eyes.
"no, i will not be weak" she whispered, a tiny voice as she heard the male talk again and she turned back. Her rage began to build again, she had to focus on that to keep the despair away. She noted his own loss, her mind jumping to her elder brother for a second. How was he doing? He had never been nice to her, even hurt her and gotten her hurt in their time together, but he was her brother and part of her wanted to know he was alright. She hated him, but she was his sister too. She nodded her head stiffly, her mouth pressed thin. She needed to be quiet now, she needed to keep her head in the rage and moving on before she would slip in to the tears again and she didnt want to be there. | |
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Post by Clannibal on Sept 30, 2015 14:38:10 GMT -5
| if i'm a danger to myself Just think what I could do to you [HASH]Zach |
Wait, what? He was confused again. First she yelled at him for needing a breakdown, now she was yelling that she needed to stay away from her emotions. He didn't know what she wanted from him now, and it made him angry. More confused than anything, but the mass confusion translated to unease, which made him angry. He threw his arms up in the air in a symbol of defeat.
"You aren't making any sense! You just said you needed a break down. So just do it. Stop whining so much about it. It's not you being weak, just you being human," he scolded with a hint of desperation itching to take over his tone. He grumbled over to find the shirt he'd discarded, and quickly shuffled to put it back on over his dripping torso.
When he was standing at the edge again, he stared down at Nix. She looked so feral that he really didn't think anything he was going to say would get through to her. This was some pointless shit. Did she want attention? Or maybe it would be best to leave her alone out here. He could come back later, and maybe she'd have calmed down enough. Of course, she may even push him past that point, too. Zach wasn't going to mess around with something like this.
"Okay, you don't want help. That's cute and all but it's a bunch of chickenshit. When the rescuers get here, are you going to slap them, too, and scream about how you don't want any help from anybody? Can't have it both ways, princess."
Getting angrier as he spoke, Zach huffed and turned away, acting as though he were walking away. He stopped a couple of steps to whip back around, returning to where he had stood.
"I'll take care of you if you break down, Nix. What else do you want from me? Cause that's all I got. If you don't want any help, you'll be right where you are now, forever. So either start crying now, or sit here by yourself as I leave."
He waited.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 1, 2015 12:41:01 GMT -5
NIX NIGHT Shadow of the Night
Well she had asked for that, she knew it. It was one of those things she said and she thought was right and then she actually heard herself speak and noted she was conflicting her own words. She wasnt all that shocked the male got quite so annoyed with her and stormed off, though she was still trying to focus on being mad right now so she couldnt let herself feel bad for upsetting him and forcing him away. "If i beak down it'll be tears, tears and everything else and i cant afford to give in to it all. Not yet, we have no where to sleep! No food, ok we have water but its not clean..." she said, taking a deep breath as she spoke and trying to control herself.
His comment on the rescue brought up a good point, and honestly she felt like telling him she would make a boat and get away but she knew it was her merely trying to be smart and spiteful. "I've lived wild, i know food and i know how to survive.....i dont need that help" she said, again taking that deep breath. The more she thought, the more she breathed, the more she cound herself calming back to herself. Ignoring that bit of her that had seen a dead body and people dying around her and wanting to cry about it, this was not the time for it. He moved away and she waited for him to leave, her eyes watching as he paused and her head tilting. No, she was not going to break down. She should do, she knew she should as it would put all her emotions in line and she could move on but she so wanted to have a place to sleep and food to eat before letting her head get in this tangled mess again | |
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Post by Clannibal on Oct 2, 2015 13:50:37 GMT -5
| if i'm a danger to myself Just think what I could do to you [HASH]Zach |
Maybe, in the end, he was keeping Nix around to stagger away from the idea that his little brother was dead. Nix was younger than him and she was spunky and maybe some of her reminded him of Joey. Looking at her now, though, and hearing her talk about stupid things, he decided she was much different than the little sibling he had in mind. She was a very confused girl and he may have wound up in a situation that called for more than he could give.
He tried not to be insulted by her immaturity. He had a feeling that she wouldn't do so well in her condition in her own. Or maybe she would. Either way, he'd be seeing her again sometime. It wasn't like this island was huge...was it? He hasn't explored the whole thing yet. He sighed a very frustrated sigh while looking down at his black tennis shoes. He was squeezing against them and watching the water leak back to where it came from. In that moment, he seemed more like a little kid with ADD, but he was doing it on purpose to collect his thoughts. Then, he turned his attention back to Nix.
"I'm not staying here anymore. The sun is going down and I want to explore more. So I hope you don't break down and cry cause I'm not going to help you if you say you don't need it. Good luck on your own, Miss Wild."
He turned his back on her, but not before he gave her a toothy grin and a wink, followed by a salute. Then he was off to walk away. If she decided to follow him, that would be fine by him, but he didn't think she would. She'd probably be too full of herself. She kept saying she couldn't cry because she would be useless, but from his perspective she hadn't done an ounce of work for anyone even when she wasn't breaking down. The chick was full of talk.
As an afterthought, to be a dick, he threw up one of his arms and yelled over his shoulder, "By the way, you're swimming in a spring. Springs don't need cleaned. Bacteria can't grow in cold, flowing water!"
He spit on the ground, and disappeared behind some shrubs.
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Post by Deleted on Oct 2, 2015 15:18:36 GMT -5
NIX NIGHT Shadow of the Night
Well that was that. The male spoke again and nix was done. She had tried to be nice, she had tried to be honest and hell she had even tried to be herself and it seemed all to end the same way so she just was done trying now. "Well go on then, i'll be fine." she muttered, she was going to go exploring the moment he left and she was going to go in the opposite direction too. She pushed her feet down in to the stone below her and started to the edge of the water as he turned his back, ignoring his action to her and taking another breath.
She pushed herself up, moving out of the water as he spoke again and she rolled her eyes. She didnt rise, she wanted to and she really wanted to run after him and thump him over the head for being so annoying but she caught herself. She heard the shrubs move and then turned her eyes to where he been, sending an angry glare to the shadow disappearing in to the leaves. She curled her hands in to fists and punched out at the air before giving a loud growl and turning on the spot. | |
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