Say It Ain't So

[sammikay]

There was something about the jungle that just made her feel like a savage. Or, maybe it was the fact that she was carrying a baby in her when the very last thing she had ever wanted was a baby. They had been stuck on this island for nearly two months now. Signs of survival were bleak, and now, to put the cherry on the top, she was pregnant. She was walking briskly now, having just left the caves a few hours before. Night fall was coming quickly, but at this moment she did not care. She wished death on herself. She would rather die than have a baby, especially on an island without medical care. Tears still stained her cheeks, but she had stopped crying a little while back. Now she was just angry. She was angry at the situation, but mostly, just angry with herself. She hadn't been able to control herself, and now she was in this situation. No one else on this stupid island was having sex, and no one else was getting themselves pregnant.

She groaned, throwing a rock that she had been squeezing in her palm for a while now. She chucked it with a grunt, just wishing she could take it all back. She brought a hand to her stomach, as if she could feel the baby already. "What have I done?" she asked herself, pressing her back against the bark of a tree and sliding down to a sitting position. Here she was again, doing what she did best: running away. She continued to hold her stomach, her head bent forward, long dark hair falling to cover her shoulders and brush the tattoos on her arms. What had she done to herself? There was not a chance in hell she could carry this child. But, stuck here on this island, she honestly had no choice. This was all she could do. Run away and hope that Zach wouldn't find out. All he had wanted was to grow old and have kids. He had told her himself that he wanted to have children. What would he had said, what would he have done, if he had found out she was pregnant? All she could do was hope and pray to whoever would listen that Raion hadn't told him the truth.

Highlights Angry, Addicted, In withdraw. #Lori Currently. Lori is getting through not having any more cigarettes, and is facing early signs of pregnancy now.

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[mermaidangel]

wish I had a river I could
                skate awayon

Two months. They had been here for two months and there was still no sign of rescue. Gabriel had tried looking for the radio whenever he was able to sneak away but he couldn't find it. It must have been thrown when the plane hit the ground. The memory made Gabriel wince and shake his head. How could he have let this happen? Well, he really had no way to stop a plane from hitting the ground once it was going down. He could only hope that he'd positioned the plane well enough to crash in the safest way possible, and there were still a lot of survivors left, so maybe he'd succeeded. If they ever got rescued, Gabriel wondered if he would continue to be a pilot.

And would Lori continue to be a flight attendant? Would any of these people even travel by air again? In time, most likely; once they all worked through the trauma of it all. These thoughts went through Gabriel's mind as he searched the jungle for Lori. She hadn't been at the cave when he'd returned from fishing and after waiting an hour, he decided to go look for her. It was getting dark and he didn't want her to get lost or hurt.

He spotted something near the trunk of a tree and when he got closer he noticed that it was Lori. He gave a sigh of relief and rushed over to her, kneeling down across from her. "Lori, are you alright?" No, she didn't look alright. He couldn't see her face because of her long hair but her posture wasn't a good sign. "Are you feeling ill?" Concern was plastered all over his face as he looked at her.

Lori was the only one (as far as he knew) who knew that he was the captain, and he'd asked her to keep his secret until he could figure out a way to tell the others. He hated keeping this from everyone, but he had a feeling that most of them wouldn't be too happy when they found out that there was an opportunity to finally blame someone for this hell on earth.

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[sammikay]

The first splash of a raindrop fell onto her head, but that wasn't what jostled her from her crazed thoughts. Still, hand on her stomach, she turned her face up to peer into no other than Gabriel. Gabriel was nice, and she knew him the longest considering he had been the pilot, but she still wasn't welcoming his company in this moment of weakness. She was upset, but the anger was still sharp on her tongue as she just shook her head and muttered, "No, I'm fine".

She brushed back her hair and quickly snapped her hand away from her stomach as if by simply having it near would give her away to Gabriel. She instead swiftly brushed her face with her hands, knowing she looked like shit. Her night here in the jungle would only add to her beauty, she was sure. "No offense, but I really just want to be alone right now," she spat, the 'no offense' actually coming off very offensive as another drop of rain trickled from the unforgiving sky.

The quiet of the day was beginning to fade into the cacophony of night, and Lori was so thankful for the moment's distraction of a monkey's screech. She closed her eyes, wishing that she had caught the illness from the caves. At least then she could have a chance of dying and not having to actually face her issues, to face her fear, her biggest fear. She swallowed hard, realizing that this indeed was her biggest fear. Not necessarily giving birth on an island with no doctor, no medical equipment, but the fact that she would be a mother. Would she end up like her own mom, abandoning her child and just continuing to be her selfish self? She was already off to a great start with the way she had been living her life.

Highlights Angry, Addicted, In withdraw. #Lori Currently. Lori is getting through not having any more cigarettes, and is facing early signs of pregnancy now.

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[mermaidangel]

wish I had a river I could
                skate awayon

Gabriel could hear that Lori definitely wasn't fine, and he didn't want to pry, but he knew that she definitely couldn't stay out here since it was getting dark. He wiped away a raindrop that fell on his nose and his eyes narrowed as Lori snapped at him again. If this had happened any time before the crash, Gabriel would have probably been a touch wounded from the tone, but this experience of survival had really toughened him up; hardened his emotions to practically steel. But there was still the old Gabriel inside who was concerned for others and put them first, and he wasn’t about to let Lori stay out here.

The monkey screech caused Gabriel to jump slightly and he sighed in growing aggravation. ”Well you won’t be fine if you stay out here. I’m not going to be responsible if anything happens to you. Come back to the caves.” Or he’d stay out here all night or take her to a safer place if she didn’t want to go back to the group. Sometimes Gabriel didn’t understand why people didn’t want to stay with the group; if they didn’t get along with everyone, at least they could know that there was safety in numbers. But Gabriel knew that a lot of people put their pride before the care of their safety.
”Unless you’re going to threaten to rat me out,” he added with a smirk. ”Then I might just be tempted to leave you here.” If Lori knew anything about him, she’d know that Gabriel would never be able to do something like that.

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[sammikay]

The moment stretch on between them, a roll of thunder echoing behind. She ended up swallowing, attempting to dislodge the softball that had worked its way into her throat. She couldn't imagine going back to the caves. She wanted nothing more than to never go back there. "Gabe, I'm not going back to the caves," she whispered, cracked lips ignoring the droplets falling on them that were gaining acceleration as they dropped from the sky. Her tongue poked out, licking away one of the beads of water. She hadn't realized until now, but crying had dehydrated her, and she really needed a long drink. That and a long dip in the water. The lagoon. That's what she wanted. Who in the world would have thought that all Lori would have wanted in this moment was a lagoon?

Looking up at the joke, not even a smile flashed across her face as her dark eyelashes flickered at the rain misting her face. "I'm not going to tell. I have no one to tell," she said finally. "I'm not going back," she asserted firmly, her eyes turning to him. She took that moment to stand up, using the tree as a little leverage as she did so. She gathered up her bag, having snatched it from the caves as she had left, slipping out into the soon to be night. She hadn't known how much daylight she had left, but she wasn't surprised now as the last few rays made their way to sink beneath the horizon. She wanted to escape to the lagoon, but honestly? she had no idea where it was in relation to herself right now. She had a general idea of locations, but she had mostly relied on others to get there. Now it was up to her. Well, her and Gabriel if he knew. "Which way is the lagoon?" she asked finally, having slung her backpack on her shoulder.

Highlights Angry, Addicted, In withdraw. #Lori Currently. Lori is getting through not having any more cigarettes, and is facing early signs of pregnancy now.

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